exodus

i fought hard to keep you within my sight. the years of distant wandering, the roads that walked me home to you. i struggled then to be conscious of the bigger picture you drew (are still drawing) for me, using the dust and ashes of my dreams, ideals and fantasies. lord, i guess i continue to believe even if i know not how or why...but i find a long-lost peace in this newfound place. amid the long desert that lies ahead, meister eckhart penned these lines to describe his own walk and relationship, in loving you...

"God is like a person who clears his throat while hiding

and so, gives himself away..."

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To be commanded to love God at all, let alone in the wilderness, is like being commanded to be well when we are sick, to sing for joy when we are dying of thirst, to run when our legs are broken. But this is the first and great commandment nonetheless. Even in the wilderness - especially in the wilderness - you shall love him.

frederick buechner