21 April 2007

and the Lord provides...

these good offerings came from cheery emily from cafe romana downstairs. the shop was clearing its fresh food for the weekend. these yummies could last till sunday. they came free; smoked salmon bagels, curry rice with chicken and cashew nuts and ricotta with tomato pesto, basil and fetta. goodness gracious me. honestly, i was already thinking of drawing her a card & giving her some fresh flowers before i leave. her goodwill is amazing, not forgetting the generous discounts she gives for the mocha cuppa i order from her on most mornings. you meet these kind souls on the road of life.














......................................................................................recovering as i reclined on my armchair. feet on the table, the setting sun and its glow. grace was never far away

remedy to the flu-blues

it fell on a monday nite. sam was already sick on the sunday of his profession. the bug probably got into me by then. monday nite was mild and warm. perfect for a swim. uni pool brewing at 27 degrees and i dipped into it. 30 laps. dried-clean and emerged out, against the evening. just berms, singlet and a thin pullover. cycled home for tofu and salmon.



nothing but arrrcheewww the morning after. nosey-waterfalls, giddy spells and the alien sense of heaviness, body speaking the language of sickness right to the marrows of bones. i switched to self-imposed quarantine. tried to hitch for one lesson but the autumn wind sent more arrrcheewwws bellowing from one despondent nose. even my bicycle shook from the unsteady gait brought forth from that legendary arrrcheewww. the body and its tenor of resistance. i too must obey.

to see a doctor here would be crazy. unnecessary referrals and always, the long queues. i have a stockpile of medicines with me. decolgen, clarinase, night and day. once, twice double-shots and plenty of forced rest. i only wrote 3 paras or 2 for that gross piece of essay i'm working on. still, they were good paragraphs. the mind has a way of distilling its best thoughts even though the rest of the body moves into shut-down mode. something has to get moving- tapping other sources of energy to keep the Self breathing.

i cooked the healthiest meal as yet. thanks to the internet's 'how to counter the flu with natural food' websites. i made the best of what i had in the kitchen. like a scene of yoda from tatootine. soon had my brown-rice porridge with dollops of coriander, mint, ginger, sweet potatoes, tumeric and almonds all in one. a side dish of salted cucumber, olive vegetables and anchovies as accompaniments. reminiscent of alexander hospital in the early 80s when i was warded for severe asthma, as a kid. a broth choked full of memories. the comfort-food which the chinese sage spoke about while prescribing traditional remedies to peasants from afar.



here i was, peasant of a different breed. locked into the tight premises of a studio-apartment. away from a tropical homeland. body learns to adapt, to the cold draught that makes people sick. ying-yang body topsy-turvey. as i unlearn the lore of that healing memory.

18 April 2007

study out-breaks

down windy alleys and minutes to go before another makan spree






kinship and silence on a far-off vineyard



scrimping on meals during study breaks with cheapo but damn-nice bag of chips





by the window, spotting baby spiders spinning dizzy webs on sprigs of aging mints




postgrad monologue

all my hard-won references for the essay. get-them-done-get-them-DONE...spare my brains for the actual crux. time now to make links between theories. make visible and illuminate case studies. a gorgeous list of biblio. just beyond one hundred and thirteen. superior bulwark of sorts. armed escorts for my essay in stark defense against a prof who might soon tear everything apart. my soon-to-be-attained M.Ed pales in comparison to her PhD. that p otent and highly d angerous degree . she seems a nice lady. germanic intelligence all merged in one. her suits are all smart cuts and neat tucks. philo-trained consultant in educational leadership. scores of papers published in worldwide journals. recommends her own 'biblical' text, perhaps the only one she wrote for constant referencing. 'read this and you'd be fine', says she. nah. i know the tricks of these academics. cite and critique their works and some glow like crazy. intellectual puffery. let's take the less trodden way. i have my own sources for confirmation. re-vision and re-imagine. i dig from corners unseen. those creative energies are excavating...and these lines will march in unison. O Lord, bless my work that it may make good difference to bodies of knowledge long-exhausted.




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Kissen, R. (2002). Getting ready for Benjamin: Preparing teachers for sexual diversity in the classroom. Lanham: Rowman & Littlefield.

Lakomski, G. (2005). Managing without leadership. Amsterdam: Elsevier.

Leithwood, K. & Duke, D. (1999). A century’s quest to understand school leadership. In Murphy, J. & Louis, K. Handbook of Research on Educational Administration. San Francisco: Jossey-Bass Publishers.

Lethwood, K., Jantzi, D., Steinbach, R. (1999). Changing leadership for changing times. Buckingham: Open University Press.

Lewis, M. (2000). Exploring paradox: A comprehensive guide. The Academy of Management Review. 25 (4). 760-776.

Macdonald, B. (1995). Theory as a prayerful act. New York: Peter Lang.
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i like the final title...more to come...

15 April 2007

a lifetime's consecration (luke 24: 13-35)

we find joy on a journey. sensing faith, flowering into fidelity. that hard-won road, down a monk's humble quiet ways; sharing Christ's solitude and silence as your lifelong listening to the Word commits you to the backwaters of a changing world. led from nowwhere and finding your love for place on the plains. here at tarrawarra.






The Lord has blessed you with many more families today, graces your sacrifice for leaving another faraway home. no turning of the plough and leaving the dead to bury their own; lifetimes of an unforgotten past and the dreams you must let go, as yet untouched. your brothers' embrace; a hopeful sign of faithful love for the community you've chosen to be. until death.





your solemn profession and monastic consecration bears a stark witness of trust and love for God and his call. a willed intersection on the road of life, even as we gather & find him with you today and everyday, at the breaking of bread.




solemn profession and monastic consecration: april 14.2007




to bros samuel & joseph ocso, with love & blessings from all of us...your friends and families from singapore, korea, malaysia and most of australia!



celebrating our Faith and Gift of Life, in Christ, always....