going after

"The most terrifying loneliness is not experienced by everyone and can be understood by only a few. I compare the panic in this kind of loneliness to the dog we see running frantically down the road, pursuing the family car. He is not really being left behind, for the family knows it is to return, but for the moment in his limited understanding, he is being left alone, forever, and he has to run and run to survive..."

charles schulz

leaving, unsaid

rilke writes that 'departures create a burden within our emotions.' i sensed traces of it today, attending the last mc retreat for the year. the pictures we've taken, perhaps for the last time, captured a moment we would remember forever; our laughter locked in recognition and lost again, in our hour of forgetfulness...

there are more words to be said. words i can't get right. that morning beside labrador beach ends too quickly...and we walk away, still looking for meanings which make us whole.